42. Tea

Tea can’t solve

all my problems. It

can only delay

them for a very short time.

There is still a

universe that I must deal

with and do

not want to acknowledge.

There are still

people I have to talk

to and do

not want to think about.

There is still

my life I have to deal

with and do

not want to remember exists.

I do not want to remember that

the world is confusion

and I am a single note in its

cacophony

I do not want to remember that

I am a part of a thing

I hate and that there is not a

way out of it

save death and delusion

            do you hear me and why I do not want to

            see anything beyond this

            tiny field of vision that keeps

            sight itself out-of-sight

            because I do not understand it

            and it does not make sense

            and yet it expects me to

            make sense for it

           

            I do not like the things I am seeing

            I do not like the things I am doing

            I do not like

                                    the

                                    world

I do not want to remember the

fact that there is anything

at all except for my

mind that I am trying to ignore

and my cup of tea.